Love

I wanna know if love is as complicated for all of you as it is for me. I have had many unsuccessful relationships and at the end of most of them I'm not all broken and falling apart etc. So I wonder, was I just not in love or am I just an expert in hiding my feelings?

At the moment I'm in a relationship, that is so complicated I don't even know how to list it on Facebook.

Sometimes we forget that love is not just between two lovers but the love that we have for our friends and family. Yesterday i was very disturbed by something someone in my family said. She said "I have such a wonderful family who I love so much, I just wish they thought the same about me." That got me thinking, since when has it become okay to put a boyfriend\girlfriend before our brothers, sisters, cousins etc.

Personally I have always had an issure with love. Family love that is. My family has always been pretty unconventional and I never made a seceret about the fact that I would not fall into the madness that was my family. I always kept myself towards myself when it came to them. now that I'm a bit older and I'm paying attention I can say with certainty that my family situation is far beyond messed up.
I mentioned at the begining of this post that I don't feel bad for not feeling bad when a relationship ends, I had this attitude with my family as well and only recently I saw what the meaning of blood is thicker than water means. I have made a decision to fight for my family and be a part of it, its never to late to love.

when it comes to men however that is a totally different story but i think the same priciple applies, never give up because it's never to late to love.